I don’t know where I would be without this human–this being, this ever so fluorescent soul. And, I don’t know how I am going to be able to continue writing this paragraph with out falling apart. Irene continues to be my lighthouse–every time I’ve cast myself into the darkness she pulls me back, pulls me into her arms, and tells me that there is light waiting for me on the other side. Irene, I am forever grateful. I aim to have the same strength that you carry. The same love that you so willingly give to others. The same spirit. You are brilliant–magical in fact. If only the world carried themselves with you in mind. Thank for you making me feel loved. Thank you for being there–always. Thank you for understanding. Thank you for sharing.
I’ve started this series because through my own self acceptance search/journey I’ve realized that we, as humans, all have problems with our skin suit no matter what it looks like. The point of this series is to confront our flaws AND to highlight our excellence. I hope one day we’ll all be able to wake up and that voice in our mind which lists all our faults on repeat will be much quieter if not silent. The mirror will be less scary. We’ll smile as we pass our gorgeous selves. We’ll have a bounce in our steps. One day we’ll love our bodies exactly as they are right now. We might have bad days . We might have bad weeks. Yet once we unlock that key, that key of self love we’ll know we can get back to a sanctuary within our bodies. Our bodies and our selves are waiting for that love, waiting for that permission to just be. As I said to Irene, (and as I say to all my future spotlights), be gentle with yourself, you are meeting parts of yourself that you have been at war with.
1. What makes you feel beautiful?
Being comfortable and confident in who I am makes me feel beautiful. Though I have to say my special someone is a close second.
2. What makes you feel powerful?
Powerful…mmm…I would have to say confidence again although this time add a cup full of hope. Hope for great things ahead in light of the potential that lies in me to achieve great things.
3. What would you tell your past self about beauty and bodies?
My past very young self was a tomboy – so didn’t really care or have much concern about that. Which is not a bad thing, but one thing I do realize is that the tomboy in me never heard “you ARE beautiful just as you are.” I knew there was beauty, there were people I could even pin as gorgeous – I just wasn’t one of them. I didn’t lose sleep over it – but I realize now that no matter if you are concerned about it or not, it is something that we all need to be sure of because it is true of all of us. So I would reassure myself of that.
4. How does your skin color make you feel?
Comfortable. If anything, I consider it an opportunity for others to engage and explore their perceptions of people that share my skin color. I tend to find that more often than not, there is something that is pleasantly surprising to them. And I want to believe that most people then realize I’m just as human as them after all.
5. How have you struggled with your body?
I am active and athletic so the athletic person in me has an insatiable appetite to win. To win even at being the best me. And with that, as I recall some of the times I consider me at my best, happiest, and healthiest – there is an association with my prime years of athleticism. As the years have gone by, I have not been able to engage in as much sports or activity at the same level of competitiveness and intensity. I feel the difference in effort and ability as I try to re-engage…and it’s a struggle for me because I know that once-upon-a-time, not too long ago my body could. And so I want it to still be able to do all the things it could do so I keep winning.
6. Complete this sentence… “In my body is a safe place to be because….”
In my body is a safe place to be because it is my temple – sacred!
From Irene, with love.