It’s been really hard for me to put pen to paper as of late, or in this case, fingers to keyboard. I am so used to sharing my life with all of you so easily, but lately I’ve been wanting to keep my life to myself.
A while back I was walking out of the grocery store, and noticed that the sky was a beautiful sherbet color. I felt compelled to stare, so I stood outside the doors, on a busy side walk, and just allowed myself to enjoy the moment.
On another note, my boyfriend isn’t a big fan of social media, and maybe that has shaped my views a little, but he’s right when he tells me that moments are much more important than the process it takes to capture those moments. Instead of spending 5 minutes trying to capture the perfect picture of the sunset for Instagram and Snapchat, I simply stood and was in awe of God’s creation.
I have come to realize that happiness isn’t served to you, it’s created, and I’ve been really happy lately. A lot of happiness mixed with a little hint of anxiety, but that’s not something new. I have finally decided to allow myself to feel joy, to be happy, to laugh, and to be loved all whilst knowing that my life isn’t perfect, and there are things that need to be worked on. I have decided to give myself permission to be where I am, and still be loved for it.
I’ve decided to find joy in all aspects of life. So, dear reader, I urge you to learn yourself and love on. Because in the end “we get better at accepting that some loose ends will always be just that. And if we come undone, we become undone.”